I sit here, ready to start. The words I want to share have been laying latent for many, many lifetimes, and the truth that always seems so complicated to grasp—really isn’t. All we have to do is remove the boulders of fear and doubt that are actually made up of the twisty-turny illusions that we ourselves, hold together.
I’ve wanted to start an Artist Blog for so long— It’s kind of embarrassing how long I’ve put it off. But that’s not important… and, who will read this isn’t either. It’s just the experience of knowing that I did something I’ve always wanted to do and release something into the world I felt was meant to be released, not knowing where it will land.
My biggest passion in life is exploring how art, creation and expression become the barometer of your life. When you listen to that inner stirring to do something, you feel better and more in touch with YOU, and when you don’t listen and don’t do it— you talk about doing it, and stress about not doing it, and it still eats up the same amount of energy, except you don’t feel better. It’s not like exercising… I used to compare a creative practice to that. Sometimes I need to lay around and not go for a walk— I listen to myself. But when I don’t create, I don’t take the time to really listen to myself. There are more fear/excuses/unseen blocks that drive that distance. As a highly sensitive person, I also think of creating as “exorcising,” because releasing the built up “feelings” I gather just from living is a necessary component to my life.
With an art practice, it’s hard to know where to start. I’m the queen of muddled steps, not taking steps, etc. etc. The first step I encourage is to demystify the creative process. It’s not going to come out perfect, or even ever be perfect… Just start. Everyone focuses on their short comings at some time or another. The trick is to remove the judgement— just simply get something out. That’s the practice. Scribble on paper, and see how it feels in your body because tere’s something tangible to exorcise when creating art once we get out of our minds and the analytic/critical self.
Over the past five years or so, I let creating art come from my head and a “business” worldly place which made me unhappy and stressed out. It happened when I started striving to make my living independently with art and design. Creating was my “job” and now looking back, I realize how blocked I got. I would pendulum from art to design and make them opposed instead of integrated— but, integration is a subject for its own blog post. I think all of that happened so I can see the contrast and be vocal with my journey back to “the other side” of complete right brained, artistic flow. To trust fully in my own way and see if I won’t end up broke and in the gutter. See if I fly. All I know is that sharing makes me feel better, and being radically real will connect me with the other souls who are itching for the same journey of busting out of their self-imposed limitations. It feels like the way I can help.
Thank you so much for being here. Let’s continue this journey together, and see how a little more art and soul can help. Things I’ll be sharing about: specific art pieces and the mental belief-scapes that come up—to be witnessed, integrated or shed. Some spirit things that help me on my path, creative entrepreneurial stuff I’ve picked up along the way, friends who are also deep cookies. Life, love, and everything in between.